I don't really deserve this, what is wrong with all of you?

Always blaming me for things I've never done?

Accusing me for things that I've never did?

I just want some peace! Fuck-ed.

Is that too much to ask from you?

I don't think so.

It's been years and nearly 2 decades since I was born into this FUCK-ED UP FAMILY.

What does your work pressure got to do with me?

I ain't no sandbag for you to let go of your frustrations.

If you're not in the mood, just say.

You have no FUCKING RIGHTS to let go of your FUCKED UP frustrations on me.

I have feelings too. I'm human and I do have a heart.

Why are you always trying to DROP MY FACE in public? And also in school?

You're tired, I understand.

But when I'm sick, you only know how to say don't eat this, don't eat that.

See, you're illness is not getting better even if you have taken meds.

Even if I did obey you, the meds don't help anyways.

I'm 16 going to 17 now.

I ain't your LIL FUCKED UP BOY ANYMORE.

I ain't a baby that NEEDS YOU to teach me what to do in everything.

I have my hands and legs, I can live on myself.

You don't have to use money to press me to do things.

WHAT'S THE BIG FUCK ABOUT MONEY?

SOME FUCKING NOTES WITH WORDS THAT WILL MAKE YOU SURVIVE?

SO YOU HAVE THE DAMN FUCKING RIGHT TO DO ALL THOSE CRAPS TO ME?

COME ON, FUCK YOU MUCH.

You've done enough to help me by DISGRACING ME EVERYWHERE.

I'm just merely a victim in the big family who always fight for money and leave out all their children.

Since young, I've got blamed for the things I've never done.

But I don't think that you and your fucked up parents should blamed me or accuse me

before you all even checked everywhere for the things you've lost.

After you all did, you fount out it was not my wrong.

Where's the 5 LETTER WORD WITH 1 MEANING? S.O.R.R.Y.?

Does it mean that you've done wrong and it's not right for you to say sorry to a child?

What does children mean to you all?

A lil soft toy with no feelings?

A child can remember all the things you guys have done.

He or she will try to think of why he or she is treated that way.

But if it's not the childs fault, why is not the adults to be blamed but the children?

Issit because that children have no energy to talk back and fight back?

So you all can just let go of your frustrations on him or her?

GET YOUR BRAINS RIGHT PLEASE.

Yes, maybe I don't understand you all either, the pain you all have wen through in life.

But do you all mind to at least PROCESS THE WORDS THAT YOU'RE GONNA SAY THROUGH YOUR BRAINS SO IT DOES NOT HURT ANYONE'S FEELINGS?

I don't wanna go to tuition because I'm really sick and it's also because I wan to know how much you love me as your son.

Well, it always give me a bad conclusion anyways.

MONEY is more important than your CHILD'S HEALTH AIGHT?

So next time, when you asked me to accompany you to the hospital, FUCKED IT.

GO YOUR SELF YOU HAVE LEGS RIGHT? YOU HAVE HANDS AND YOUR MOUTH TO TALK RIGHT?

SO WHY AM I SUPPOSE TO FOLLOW YOU EVERYWHERE?

I AIN'T YOUR DOG F.Y.I.

The pain I've gone through in this fucked up family.

It's just unimaginable.

What does love mean to you?

Giving me money and good food?

Is that love to you?

The love I want is not money nor food.

I just want a happy life and a nice family.

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?

Don't act in front of others thanks.

Don't act like you're very pityful till everyone has to be patient on you.

Please get your fucking nerves right.

People care for you and it does not mean that you have the right to make people under your command.

Family related fights HAS GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.

Please don't involve me thanks.

Can't you all just try to Give And Take?

A lil kid can understand how to share, Why can't you mature adults understand?

Issit because that you all have a lot of pressure in work and stuffs?

Excuses, understand what I mean? Even how much pressure you have in your work, you still have to love your family and not letting go off your frustrations.

Ohana means family,

Family means together,

Which means,

Father And Mother I Love You.

It's not Fuck And Move, I "Love" You.

I'm really getting sick of my life and sometimes it makes me just want to end it.

I don't want to because I keep saying to my self,

One day they'll understand you for sure,

Just wait till that day comes.

But base on the situation till today.

I don't think that day will come. =]

I really do hope that the day will come and I'm finally free of pressure.

You always know how to say people but not yourself.

The people you say can do the job, why can't you?

They are parents, aren't you one too?
Trespassing my privacy?
Don't you think that's kinda rude for you to do that?
 Such brainless people.

I'm just saying this and hope that you'll all understand how I feel.

If you all don't, then there's nothing else more that I can do.

Sorry, but I love you all.

If this post pissed you all off,

 I'm sorry but you all don't really understand me at all. =]