OWH YEAH ! SPM IS FINALLY OVER !

WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO!

I'M SO HAPPY THAT THIS IS THE FINAL YEAR EXAM ! IT'S OVER !!!

Well yeah, I'm very happy that it has finished,

But I miss schooldays, like seriously.

I don't know what to say but schooldays are the best days in one's life.

It's been already a week since SPM finished,

My life now is like lifeless.

Yes me and my friends and other school friends celebrated, for the first few days.

How long can we celebrate?

Everyone has to move on right?

Sigh, speaking about life,

My life sucks now.

I have a TRIALS RELATIONSHIP.

Heard that? TRIALS.

Which means, one of the party is in a relationship with you but did not really or fully accept you yet.

It's like testing your love for the other party?

What a joke.

A TRIALS IN A RELATIONSHIP.

SERIOUSLY, WHAT A DAMN JOKE.

Yeah, I'm in one now.

In a relationship, both sides has to trust each other.

I gave her my trust.

She never gave me hers. :)

What should I do ?

Break up with her ? Continue the relationship ?

I don't know which decision that I should make.

I can't break up with her yet because i still love her,

But all the things she did to me,

Everything, I can't possibly find a reason to not break up with her.

Still I can't and will not break up with her as I'm hoping each day,

Praying that she'll change her mind, the way she thinks, her childish acts.

Change her ways of looking at me.

Well I think it's hard to change someone's mind.

How about this,

I'll be the bad guy for once,

Try to make her hate me by not texting her, not talking to her.

Will that work ? I hope so.

So I won't be the one to open my mouth and hurt her.

I rather she broke up with me than me breaking up with her.

I just can't tell her how I feel.

I tried my very best and I did everything to make her happy.

Isn't that enough ?

I've never ask anything from her,

Just hoping that she'll accept me, as her boyfriend.

But I don't think that will happen.

Ive already started to lose my feelings towards her since that day.

That day that she told me that the relationship we're in now,

Is a trial.

I'm like so down, and that time, I've already started to give up on her.

No point of me putting so much effort already.

The finale is the same.

She won't ever accept me.

All I did was love her and care for her, make her happy.

Make each of her day a brighter day.

Is that wrong ?

I hope that you're reading this and try to change your point of view of me.

I really appreciate it.

I don't put much hope on your point of view over me.

Cause I know that you won't accept me.

I hope we can still be friends.

I Love You YeeTing ♥