Yes ! I'm officially 18 now !

I'm very happy that finally I'm considered as an adult now !

I've been waiting for this day for so long !

I've even celebrated my birthday in MOIS.

A club in UPR (Upper Penang Road).

Woooohooo ! Clubbing is awesome.

Although it's just the third time going,

But this is the first time I actually drink vodka and whisky.

I've celebrated with Viiko, Raymuelio, Kimberly, Emily, Elspeth, Arthur, Bryan, Hong, Miguela, Jia Chee, Roger, Amelia, Jozen, May Chee, Elaine, Elaine's boyf.

Well it's the best party I've ever had since standard 1.

I didn't received much presents but I'm happy that they wished me.

I'm really happy there such nice friends around me.

I'm really happy, very very happy.

I don't know what words to put to describe this feeling,

But it's just awesome. =)

I'm really happy that I celebrated together with her,

Right by my side.

I do have feelings for her, 

But I'll let time to confirm it with me.

For the pictures, 

There're all in my facebook.

Thank You All For Coming To My Party.

I Really Enjoyed Much.

Thank You All Again My Loved Ones. :)

Well, it has been a month and a half since I broke up with her.

I regretted a lot for not appreciating, loving and caring for you more.

I'm looking back those pictures we took together.

Sigh, it just brings back tons of memories and emotions.

After we broke up, we're now like strangers back again,

Back before we knew each other and couple up.

We never text, call or even talk anymore since then.

Does it mean that after breaking up we can't still be friends ?

I don't know about this seriously.

I'm just really emotional since 9th of March.

If I had the chance to love someone again,

Someone like you.

I won't make the same mistakes again.

The pain of losing you is taking away my life each and every single day.

College has started for 3 weeks.

Life here is so much better than secondary school life.

I don't want to say this but I think I've changed.

I'm doing all my assignments, homeworks and even cut down on gaming.

Back then, during secondary school life.

I'm totally the opposite.

Maybe it's because of the time.

Time changes someone's attitude and character.

And also the way someone thinks.

I think I've fell for someone in my class.

I did confessed, but at a wrong timing.

Because she just broke up with her boyf and she misses him alot.

Well yeah, you can guess what happened.

I've told her that about the I chase her stuff.

Forget about it for now.

Let us stay as best friends for now.

We'll talk about this in the future.

After I said that to her,

She stopped avoiding me and there's no more awkwardness between us.

If I ever had a chance to get together with her.

I'll make sure I won't make the same mistakes like I ever did,

And appreciate,care and love her much more.

Peace.

I'm just not me again even when I'm with or without her.

She changed me in a good way.

I still do have feelings for her.

Like how people say,

No one will ever forget their first love no matter what.

Well I felt weird about myself,

It's like i can't go back to my regular life back again.

I can't be like last time,

Always talk to girls much.

No more, that feeling changed since SHE banned me from doing it.

The feelings vanished without a trace.

Deep down in my heart,

I really love her more than anyone.

I just don't see my mistake.

Maybe that's the reason why she broke up with me.

I will not blame her for anything if she breaks up with me.

Everything is caused by me,

I won't blame her that she said her feelings faded for me.

It's my fault that I don't have enough time to text her or talk to her.

But I hope there's a better guy than me that can replace me in her heart,

And take care of her.

That's all I ask.

I really just don't feel like me anymore.

It's so weird going back to my old social life.

Facebook-ing everyday.

Chit chats with lots and lots of friends.

I just can't go back, 

Seriously I can't.

May God Blessed Her,

The Someone I'm referring to with happiness and a great guy with her.

Taking good care of her for me.

To be honest, 

I really don't wanna break up with you,

But since you made it so clear, 

I've got nothing to say no more but to respect your decisions.

I keep re-reading that one message,

Keep blaming myself for the things I said, 

Those hurtful things I did,

I know,

Sorries bring you no where,

Effort does right ?

Every time when I did something wrong, 

I just apologized,

Saying sorries again and again.

But after that I know I took it like nothing has ever happened.

I know you won't and will never will let go of the past easily.

Don't be sad no more when I'm not with you anymore alright,

Forget about me, 

The memories of you with me.

The presents I gave you.

Forget every single one of them.

Move on to the future.

Live your life happier without me by your side.

I know a good and nice girl like you deserve a better guy than me.

I'm sorry that I've hurt you so many times.

I know I can't repay my sins and acts.

I hoped that you'll forgive me if you ever read this.

Move on again I say.
Don't look back.
I'm sorry that Teddy Bear is not by your side no more.
Teddy Bear's master's feelings faded on him.
He can't do anything but to let his master break off with him.
It should not end like this as Teddy Bear promised to be by your side,
Forever and always loving you and caring for you.
But he can't keep his promise.
He said that he'll always love you no matter what happens.
And he also said that he'll never betray you.
That's the promise and words he ever said,mean and kept so that you know that he really loves you as his master.
Teddy says don't be sad,
Teddy is sad because he has to retire from your ownership due to his sins and acts.
Teddy is truthfully sorry.
Teddy Still Loves You And Wants You Back.
But Teddy Knows It Can't Happen Anymore.

This will be last time I'm saying this to you.

♥ I Love You. ♥

I don't know how to say this but,

I really love you more than anything else.

I can do anything, ANYTHING just to make sure that you're happy.

I know I've hurt you badly that day, 2nd January 2011.

But I really regretted for what I've done.

I'm jut asking you to give me this second and last chance.

Is it too much to ask from you?

You went out with another guy,

You even asked me for permission to go out with him alone, 1 on 1.

At that time, my heart broke down immediately.

You even chased me off, 

Who loved you more than anything in this world,

Someone who sacrifices everything including his image for you,

Just for someone you never met before.

And yet you watched movie with him, sitting together like couples.

My friends saw you,

They thought it was nothing.

To me, 

I let you do this cause I'm looking it at a brighter side,

It's payback for what I've did to you.

You've already return it to me by 4-5 folds.

I broke down in Gurney 3 times on that day.

My tears rolled down my cheeks in public.

I just want to be back with you.

I've really regretted all the things I've done.

I want you back.

I REALLY WANT YOU BACK INTO MY LIFE.

I'm just hoping I can be back with you,

Given the second chance to love and care for you,

Given the chance to be officially your boyf.

I'll appreciated what you've given me.

I promise not to make you cry or sad no more.

Only tears of joy, 

Not tears of sadness.

I love you.

I'm really sorry for what I did to you,

I know I've hurt you badly, deeply.

I've regretted everything I did to you,

I really pray and beg and hope for your forgiveness.

I want to be with you again.

I really want you back.

I'm just not me without you.

I can't live one day without reading or see-ing your message.

I promise I won't hurt you anymore.

I really do hope you can give me the last chance to be with you again.

I should have appreciated you more.

I've should have spend more time with you.

I've should have not drink on New Year's Eve and then break your promise.
The times I had with you is something money can't buy.
It's very valuable to me.
Those times are the sweetest memories in my life with you in it.
You are the missing puzzle piece in my life.
I want to be back with you.
PLEASE...
You're everything to me.
Everything.
No one can replace you in my heart,
You're always on the top place in my heart.
I can't bare to lose you.
I might just end my life because of that as I really really love you.
I've regretted.
Hope'll you read this and give me a last chance for me to be with you again.
I Love You.

I REALLY WANT YOU BACK IN MY LIFE.

OWH YEAH ! SPM IS FINALLY OVER !

WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO!

I'M SO HAPPY THAT THIS IS THE FINAL YEAR EXAM ! IT'S OVER !!!

Well yeah, I'm very happy that it has finished,

But I miss schooldays, like seriously.

I don't know what to say but schooldays are the best days in one's life.

It's been already a week since SPM finished,

My life now is like lifeless.

Yes me and my friends and other school friends celebrated, for the first few days.

How long can we celebrate?

Everyone has to move on right?

Sigh, speaking about life,

My life sucks now.

I have a TRIALS RELATIONSHIP.

Heard that? TRIALS.

Which means, one of the party is in a relationship with you but did not really or fully accept you yet.

It's like testing your love for the other party?

What a joke.

A TRIALS IN A RELATIONSHIP.

SERIOUSLY, WHAT A DAMN JOKE.

Yeah, I'm in one now.

In a relationship, both sides has to trust each other.

I gave her my trust.

She never gave me hers. :)

What should I do ?

Break up with her ? Continue the relationship ?

I don't know which decision that I should make.

I can't break up with her yet because i still love her,

But all the things she did to me,

Everything, I can't possibly find a reason to not break up with her.

Still I can't and will not break up with her as I'm hoping each day,

Praying that she'll change her mind, the way she thinks, her childish acts.

Change her ways of looking at me.

Well I think it's hard to change someone's mind.

How about this,

I'll be the bad guy for once,

Try to make her hate me by not texting her, not talking to her.

Will that work ? I hope so.

So I won't be the one to open my mouth and hurt her.

I rather she broke up with me than me breaking up with her.

I just can't tell her how I feel.

I tried my very best and I did everything to make her happy.

Isn't that enough ?

I've never ask anything from her,

Just hoping that she'll accept me, as her boyfriend.

But I don't think that will happen.

Ive already started to lose my feelings towards her since that day.

That day that she told me that the relationship we're in now,

Is a trial.

I'm like so down, and that time, I've already started to give up on her.

No point of me putting so much effort already.

The finale is the same.

She won't ever accept me.

All I did was love her and care for her, make her happy.

Make each of her day a brighter day.

Is that wrong ?

I hope that you're reading this and try to change your point of view of me.

I really appreciate it.

I don't put much hope on your point of view over me.

Cause I know that you won't accept me.

I hope we can still be friends.

I Love You YeeTing ♥

How am I gonna put it?

Sad? Happy? Normal?

This feeling, it's just so hard to describe.   

Yes, Mr. Khor Hong Yin, Methodist Boys' School's Principal.

He has retire after serving for the school for the past 7 years.

He's 58 this year.

We all gave our last respects to him as the school's principal.

Gave him presents, taking photos.

There's a quote in his speech saying that,

*Success never comes without hard work*

Well, today's the last day of school, nothing much happened.

There're lots of firecrackers burning and it go like BOOM ! BAM !! POW !!!

It's such a noisy day, haha.

Yea, this year will be the last year of my upper forms school life.

After form 5, no more happy go lucky school life.

Why am I laughing still?

My SPM exams is like in one week!

And yet I'm sitting in front of my computer.

Sigh. Who knows what might happen and who will we meet in the future?

So, enjoy your life now.

Don't hesitate for the future.

Well, Sir ! I Dedicate this song for you on my blog !

And Finally The School Song !
Come and sing a rousing song,
Tap your feet as you go along,
Sing of MBS Penang, sing of MBS Penang,
Pykett came to blaze the trail,
There's no room for hearts that quail,
Learn then there can be no rest,
Till you given all your best.

MBS ! (MBS), MBS ! (MBS)
For you a name for us a fame, 
Shining steadily and lustily,
To show us life's a game,
MBS ! (MBS), MBS ! ( MBS)
O Come what may we vow to play,
Life's a great game with courage and spirit gay.
MBS ! (MBS)